This morning's meditation group was made up of women entrepreneurs visualizing to give ourselves permission to: value ourselves, be fulfilled, and be genuinely happy. Sounds great, but you’d be amazed at the junky belief systems still kicking around inside us! We all develop them in childhood to help us cope and then we outgrow them, but we don't always rethink and reengineer them, even as we continue to live in their sway. I've used Health Kinesiology for over 9 years now to clean this stuff out. It makes a huge difference. I am a very different person than I was a decade ago (thank goodness).
So, deep in this meditation, I found myself bumping up against a strange refusal to accept some changes I am striving to make. I could feel it so clearly! Some part of me (from long, long ago) just wanted to stay the same. I mean it didn’t even believe any of this energy healing, light and information, or law of attraction stuff that I've seen, done and loved for nine years. It just wanted everything to stay on an even keel, smooth sailing in an absolutely straight line, NO CHANGES.
So I had a fascinating conversation with this part of me, which appeared like a jelly-bean shaped blob covered in linen. I asked what its positive intent was. The answer: peace. In the end, I had to point out that the ocean was constantly changing, shifting, moving, so that in order to sail in a straight line we have to adjust course constantly. Balance is about flexibility. Lashing down the wheel---inflexibility---makes you vulnerable to the forces around you.
Suddenly, it swooshed away super fast in a great arc like I'd let go of an open balloon full of air. Then I realized it was still there, but perfectly clear, no linen-like covering. And radiant. It communicated: it was fine, it understood, and now it will work to establish inner peace whatever the environment.
Change is constant, and we too must change constantly to remain in balance. This was the entire point of a speech I gave in 2004, but I understand it on another level now. Where are you holding blindly to the steering wheel of your life? Where do you need flexibility in order to maintain equilibrium?
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