It started as a noticeable little nudge about a month ago, like I felt I needed more meditation. How very odd. Like I was hungry for something, really had a taste for... meditation? Sure, sure, after I finish my 2009 bookkeeping and write my new web copy and launch my new site... I'll get to it, been meaning to be more formal about that for a while now...
Nudge again. Realization a few days ago that when I wake up in the morning and spend a long while with my eyes closed, it is essentially a meditation already, collecting remnants of dreams and interpreting them, allowing priorities for the day to show themselves, saying the morning thank you prayers. Hmm, it might be nice to do that sitting up, official-like.
A few days later (yesterday), a book about Buddhism is in my hands unexpectedly. I open "randomly" to a prayer I've essentially been saying in different words for a while now. It is my core theme this year: how can I help the most people the most, how can I make the difference? On the spur of the moment I sit outside in the weak spring sunshine on an unusually warm Wisconsin day to read the whole book.
Gulp. Haven't read about Buddhism in a long while. I'm shocked to realize I'm like a Buddhist who believes in God. Except Buddhists meditate. Regularly.
This beautlful silly baby beginner gift book talks about meditation in just the right way, and I know. It is time. For me to shift my spiritual practice more formally. To commit to a new level of communion with the world, or I won't be able to move where I can feel my life going.
Oh, I could point to gentle signs going back about 6 months. Then today my coach and husband both suggest the exact same kind of meditation to me, completley independently. OK. Got it! Listening!!
I know it's up to me, it's a choice. I teach this: your spiritual calling is an invitation, and you can refuse or accept at any time, without judgment. If you put it off, it will patiently wait for you. The hints may progressively get more noticeable -- just in case you missed the invite. Like in the first Harry Potter movie when zillions of envelopes pour down the chimney after he doesn't respond to a few invitations. Hard to miss. "More noticeable" means more frequently, more unusually... or more painfully, depending on what you react to.
All I can say is I'm delighted and grateful to have gotten this message so easily, without getting sick, without getting into a state (eg., of injury) where all I could do is meditate. And I have a cool new Buddhist prayer on my vision board as a bonus.
It's time to let my new practice bubble up from where it already exists, hidden within me. I have a sense of what it has to be. I'll ask and find out details. And then I'll figure out how to incorporate it into an already seemingly full life. The difference is that now it's not a "should". I really WANT to.
How is your spiritual practice going? Does it fully feed you and support not just where you are but where you are going? If you'd like help to discover your ideal spiritual practice, I can read you and tap your higher wisdom for an answer (to anything in life or biz, it's fun and fascinating). Or you can sit in stillness and let it bubble up from that place where your Full Potential already is. All that you need is already within you: you just have to find it.
I love you. Go heal.

