Healer To Healer™

Interpreting a dream of betrayal... self-betrayal

Woke up from a terrifying dream with a message this morning.  Here's how I decoded it. 

In it, I had some random house guests I hadn't seen in a long time, but when we all woke up the next morning in the dream, my body had rotted out in several places, really gruesome.  (I will spare you the details, bleah.)

Panicked, I went from person to person begging for help but they went about their lives as if they couldn't even see me.  One person was organizing a fun backpacking trip, everyone was excited.  I was panicked and nobody noticed I needed help.

Then it was time to wake up.  Shudder. 

I love interpreting dreams, seeing what our wise deep self has to say about what's going on in waking time.  I've been interpreting dreams for clients for over a decade, and there is ALWAYS something fascinating to learn from them.  All the issues we have been hiding from ourselves come bubbling up in our dreams, where we can work them out and see more clearly what our problems really are. 

In this dream, all the guests in my house had at one time in my life betrayed me, some repeatedly.  Betrayal is a fascinating topic, one which I unfortunately know a lot about personally. It's been a personal growth theme most of my life (getting much better now, thank you).  By working with it, I've discovered that experiencing betrayal in the world, from friends, relatives, or coworkers, reflects some way that you are not being true to yourself.  When you figure out exactly what you're doing and become your staunchest ally, betrayal in the "real world" magically fades.  I see this over and over as I help clients identify their self-betrayal issues and resolve them, too.  (I love my work!)

So all my guests had betrayed me, and then so did my body!  They didn't provide help, support, or health.  They just ignored me.  What does it mean?

Notice the betrayers were in a position of honor: guests.  This told me not to look down upon them, but to look more closely at what they offered through their actions.  They showed total purposeful ignorance, happily planning for a fun adventure while avoiding even acknowledging something very serious: a rotting body.  So I should ask myself this:  How am I completely ignoring something wrong with my body while I am busily and happily planning for the future?

OK, I get it.  As a healer for over 12 years, I've cleaned a lot of garbage out of my diet, but I have always had a sweet tooth.  I still fall back on it when I'm stressed.  It's been hard to break, even with increasingly noticeable consequences in my body when I give in.  Last week I hit a big stressor and guess what, craved sugar big time.  (Parents, please don't comfort or reward your children with sweets!)  I'll admit, I caved... quite a lot yesterday in fact. 

I'd already gotten the sense recently that it's time to stop this habit, and had set some new limits.  My whole personal growth path has upshifted this year, and now sweets have to go, 100%, no exceptions any more.  Now I have vividly seen they have the power to rot my body from the inside out.  (This is true: I lost a tooth once that had cavities on the inside, not the outside.)  I know I need to do some metabolic healing work to get my blood sugar to more appropriate levels.  A month or so ago I ramped up my meditation schedule and my exercise program again (from random to an increasingly better schedule).  Now sweets have to go.  It's time to put my foot down for myself and for all those I help, including my family. 

And I have this wonderful gift to help me: the genuine terror I felt in the dream when I experienced what would have made horror movie special-effects artists proud.  This feeling is terror I really do feel, but haven't been in touch with because I've been, well, blithely ignoring it, like all my guests did.  This dream connected me to my true feelings about sugar and my inner knowing of what it can do to my body.  It became a healing tool to help me stop betraying my feelings and inner knowing. 

I am so grateful for the dream, so grateful that I learned this way instead the harder, real way first.  What have you been dreaming about lately?  What insights can you gain into your life by looking at what your dreams represent?

Who are you, and how do you know?

This message channeled its way through me into a client's healing session this morning, and she graciously gave me permission to share it.  

It is posed as a question but came in clearly as an assignment, not a rhetorical wondering or an interesting thought. While I know the question was for her, the tone of it demanded the two of us each in our own way each find our own answer to it.  This is the gift of true channeling:  it applies to whoever hears it, exactly at the time you hear it. 

Here, now, is your assignment-in-a-question too:

"If you are not in conflict, how can you feel and know who you are?"

Conflict gives us the tension and power to change our identities and our lives.  It is through the mirror of the opposite side of conflict that we begin to see who we are: "rebel", "activist", "purist", "on the good or right or holy side, and therefore good or right or holy".

Without conflict, then, how do you achieve knowing who you are?  

I can't say I've got my own full answer on this assignment yet, but here's an even better question I would ask as a spiritual mentor:  How can you do more of whatever that is going forward?

That's a big assignment.  How are you doing?

Do you KNOW there's something more?

"I used to think that people fell into one of three groups: those who don't believe in anything beyond their basic five senses, those who are open to the possibility that there might be something beyond those senses, and those who definitely believe there's something more.  Yet suddenly I find myself in a fourth, smaller group:  those who know there's something more."

   — Eric Pearl in The Reconnection: Heal Others, Heal Yourself (my #1 recommended book for healers)

Was it a spiritual message for me?

Today I had the great pleasure of interviewing for my book about the healer's journey a wonderful healer named Jennier Urezzio (http://www.KnowSoulsLanguage.net/).  She talked so beautifully about her healer's journey and how she came to recognize her spiritual support team, which she realized had been communicating with her all along.  Call them angels, guides, guardians, ancestors, nature spirits or what have you, all the guidance and help you need is right at your fingertips, healer!  Most of us just need to learn to "read" it, recognize it all around us, and allow it to have meaning. 

She shared a story about a stranger who sat down next to her when she was upset and said exactly the thing she needed to hear.  When we recognize these messages, they seem very purposeful, and they have deep meaning that can uplift you at just the right moment.  I remember riding the subway home after breaking up with a boyfriend, feeling distraught, when a group of four ragtag black men came into the car, straight over to me, asked me my name, and then sang me a beautiful song in harmony about how wonderful I was.  I knew it wasn't random, and I wish I'd had more than $10 on me.  I floated home.

Jennifer also briefly demonstrated her Soul's Language system.  She told me about one of the ways my soul expresses itself as me, Daria, in my personality, through the Soul's Language archetype she calls "The Carter".  This type of person has a message to share with the world, she says, programmed in every fiber of my being, coming through all I see, speak and do.  Oh, yeah, right on the nose there.  Even in the course of her chatting about this a short time, I could feel some part of me let go and relax as it became easier to allow myself to carry my message.  (This is the wonderful thing about hand analysis and other intuitive healing like this: the messages about who we are give us permission to be ourselves genuinely and can be tremendously healing!)  Thank you Jennifer!

Here's the rest of the story.  I ran out to the office store in Madison after our interview, and wanted to stop by the Target down there for one item.  Except my spiritual boosters were rooting for Walmart, which is the only big store back in our little town.  I don't like shopping there, especially for food, but I've been around the block enough to follow guidance when I hear it!  I went to Walmart. 

As I drove up, a car pulled out from a spot right by the building past where I usually park.  Walking in, I noticed a machine by the door selling our local newspaper, which I'd never noticed before.  My eyes drifted across the main headline -- and I stopped in my tracks.  Do you think this was a spiritual message for me?  Are you ready?  I kid you not, it said exactly this:

"Future Looks Bright, Carter Says"

Hey, healer, guess what?  Your future looks bright!  The Universe is made of Love and anything else is an illusion!  And you are already a master healer; you just have to allow yourself to be. 

I love you.  Go heal.

How to recognize a hidden side-effect of doing or receiving healing

Have you noticed you get tired or need extra sleep when you receive a healing, do a new kind of energy work, or experience a divinely inspired realization (or download)?  It's a common effect of spiritual work that I've rarely heard talked about. 

Some teachers even warn that certain kinds of work drain specific nutrients.  So you may have a short-term craving for a certain food, or more protein, or extraordinary amounts of water.  Don’t talk yourself out of it!  Discerning and following your body's wisdom is a practice crucial to the healer's path, and will benefit you in other ways.  (Make sure you're hearing the wisdom and not your tongue.)

But sometimes it’s not the needs of the physical body that make us tired.  I know from experience and from many other healers that some new information downloads, healings, or adjustments/openings have to be processed in the sleep state. 

You just can’t do it awake. 

For instance, last year I ordered The Keys of Enoch®, a difficult metaphysical text that describes two days the author spent with a divine being who showed him many things, including the future.  It felt like I’d waited forever for this book to arrive.  I had the box open before setting it down, and immediately flipped through the book.  Excited and not the teensiest bit tired or sleep-deprived, I read only two pages and then fell soundly asleep in my chair for 20 minutes, head hanging over the book.   

These "naps" have nothing to do with sleepiness or an overtaxed body.   You just need to get out of your conscious state to process.  Do you and the Universe a great favor:  don't fight it.  Take a nap or go to bed early -– receive this message and follow it!  Your doing so will benefit us all. 

Last week, a healer friend read me a passage from the new book, Eat Pray Love.  In it, as the writer’s friend drives them on a long road trip, the writer realized that (1) resolving her messy, drawn-out divorce was in fact significant enough to pray about, and (2) it was OK to ask the Universe for help in this way, a big epiphany for her.  So she does, and they spend an hour thinking of all the famous people who would endorse her prayer.  Then the main character conks out, a common enough car event.  The book casually says she took a short nap.  It might have said about 20 minutes.  When she woke up, her lawyer called:  the ex had signed the papers. 

My friend and I knowingly nodded.  We knew why she’d fallen asleep. 

Now you do too.

Healing the lake, and the penalties of NOT healing

Well!  I could spend every post talking about the incredible coincidences that punctuate my days!  Thursday I had arranged to meet my friend Althea in Madison, WI, where we ended up going for a walk along, you guessed it, Lake Monona (see prev. post).  A small park along the lakefront tugged at me hard and we crossed the street.  I followed my feet onto a floating dock, which, with all the recent flooding in Wisconsin, we walked UP the hinged first segment of (instead of the usual DOWN). 

I love looking out over water, don't you?  And I thought it was fascinating that the current under the water (full of the green dots of algae) was going one direction, (toward the dock), while the surface of the water (covered with tiny flower petals) was going another (toward the middle of the lake).  What a metaphor for people, I said -- trying to appear on the surface to be something different than we are underneath. 

Then I saw the fish -- tons of little bluegills and maybe a striped perch or two.  Given our encounter Tuesday, I had to say HI!  They were everywhere.  Then Althea mentioned it felt like a kind of fog was over the lake and I suddenly felt what she was talking about.  Thick-feeling, slow.  So while we continued to talk I did some Reconnective Healing over the water to see if that would help.  You never know, but you can always try. 

After a few minutes the wind picked up and tiny ripples on the water made it look all sparkly.  I smiled and asked Althea if it felt the same, and, surprised, she said no, not at all.  Then we tuned into something that felt like a giant muddy morass in the middle of the lake, and I focused Reconnective frequencies there.  After a while longer, we agreed that it felt like some container was still there but it was empty now, whatever that means.  But overall, the lake felt much better.  As we turned to leave she pointed down and said, "Look!"  Now both layers of the water were going in exactly the same direction.  We finished our delightful walk. 

Living as a healer means healing.  If your life purpose is to heal, you need to let that out of you, even if you don't have paying clients yet.  Heal yourself, heal a tree, work on the cat.  Holding back your natural healing gift can cause: lack of joy, unexplained sadness, feeling cut off, clogged communications, blocked intimacy, and a feeling of being shut off everywhere you turn.  What are you waiting for?  Heal!

From The Healing Mind: Bunnies stopped by for a little healing this morning

From July 1 on The Healing Mind blog  (http://thehealingmind.typepad.com/the_healing_mind/):

This morning there were two young rabbits sitting on our front lawn straight out from the front door.  The kids watched them  a while.  They were fairly fearless, and didn't move far, wiggled their noses and watched the kids back.  After breakfast, three of them were sitting out there, in plain sight, watching us watching them.  Even when the babysitter arrived, they didn't go far and were soon right back there waiting outside the front door.  They'd been there more than an hour when I paused to say hi on my way to the computer.  I heard a high squeaky voice in my head say, "We came to see you," and I laughed to myself, thinking I was really imagining things now.  (I can hear messages but never in high squeaky voices!)

Then one of them, who seemed to be in charge, ran toward another, chased it around a little loop and when they stopped, facing me this time, I could see the other's left front leg was lame.  It was smaller than the right and he held it up across the other leg when sitting. The three of them sat there looking right at me so, what can ya do, I raised my hands and let Reconnective Healing flow.  After about three minutes, the one in charge extracted one more hidden in the garden right by the house and the four of them ran off around back (their home is in the neighbor's yard behind us). 

How interesting was that!  My second nonhuman client in two days. Yesterday I read about some trouble down the road in Lake Monona.  As I read I became aware of Reconnective Healing flowing from my hands, so I went with it, imagined Lake Monona and let the light and information flow into the water.  After a while I realized it was going to the fish in the lake.  I wonder if those fish are telling tales on me!

Did you know you can look up the meaning of animals you see, or think about their attributes and how that wisdom applies to your life? Have you had any interesting encounters with the animal kingdom recently? 

This morning there were two young rabbits sitting on our front lawn straight out from the front door.  The kids watched them  a while.  They were fairly fearless, and didn't move far, wiggled their noses and watched the kids back.  After breakfast, three of them were sitting out there, in plain sight, watching us watching them.  Even when the babysitter arrived, they didn't go far and were soon right back there waiting outside the front door.  They'd been there more than an hour when I paused to say hi on my way to the computer.  I heard a high squeaky voice in my head say, "We came to see you," and I laughed to myself, thinking I was really imagining things now.  (I can hear messages but never in high squeaky voices!)

Then one of them, who seemed to be in charge, ran toward another, chased it around a little loop and when they stopped, facing me this time, I could see the other's left front leg was lame.  It was smaller than the right and he held it up across the other leg when sitting. The three of them sat there looking right at me so, what can ya do, I raised my hands and let Reconnective Healing flow.  After about three minutes, the one in charge extracted one more hidden in the garden right by the house and the four of them ran off around back (their home is in the neighbor's yard behind us). 

How interesting was that!  My second nonhuman client in two days. Yesterday I read about some trouble down the road in Lake Monona.  As I read I became aware of Reconnective Healing flowing from my hands, so I went with it, imagined Lake Monona and let the light and information flow into the water.  After a while I realized it was going to the fish in the lake.  I wonder if those fish are telling tales on me!

Did you know you can look up the meaning of animals you see, or think about their attributes and how that wisdom applies to your life? Have you had any interesting encounters with the animal kingdom recently?